Brotherly Love

Being as yesterday was Easter I believe we all reflect on our Savior. It means more than words can express the love and kindness that He provides to me and those around me. The fact He was willing to come live and die for me is more than I can ever begin to comprehend, however I know He would do everything all over again just to save me and my lost soul.

When I think of the Atonement and how much it means to me I stand in awe. Without the power, mercy, and justice that is served and fulfilled I would never be able to return to live with my Heavenly Father and see Him again. I know I have done many of things over my life time to let Him and others down, but I know I have been forgiven as I have felt His love and tenderness in my life. I am eternally grateful for the love of my Savior who is my Elder Brother. I love Him and cannot wait for the day when I can see Him face to face and thank Him for all the tender mercy and love He has shared on my behalf.

My World Just Flips Upside Down

The title of this really has nothing to do with what I'm going to say... it's just a line in a song I'm listening to right now :)

Anyway I'm just sitting here getting somethings ready for my class next week and for parent night as well. While doing this I'm of course listening to music as always which is why I am writing. Music is an amazing part of life. When I can't seem to find the right words, or the right thing to cheer me up, or anything at that matter I know I can also go to music.

Since I was little I've always sang and played the piano. One of the most relaxing things in the world to me is simply sitting down at the piano and singing the Hymns and play other church music. No matter what is going on in my life I know I can find peace and love in them and lately that's what's helping me through things.

It honestly seems like nothing ever seems to workout the way we plan or even hope for (I know that's life, but still). When opportunity's are placed in our path and we are excited for them before we know it, it feels like it's ripped from us. Having a greater knowledge I do understand that sometimes things aren't meant to be and just aren't right for that time, but that doesn't make anything less painful.

If you read my blog more than likely you know about my job and how unhappy I am. I love kids and I love helping them to learn and grow, but I am not happy with who I work for and the way everything is managed. I come home miserable most days, and half the time I'm not even in my own classroom anymore. I don't know what to do because I have done my best to look for another job and everything just doesn't show anything. It gets to you! I try my best to just keep my head up but sometimes it's not good enough, you know what I mean?

If I could do anything in the world, I would just love for music to be my career! It's the most wonderful thing. I wish I could just somehow be able to do so, know the right person, or something, I'm just tied of feeling like I fail at everything I try to do.

Thunder Weekend

This past weekend was Thunder Over Louisville! For those of you who do not know what that means... go repent! No for real though it's the kick off to the KY Derby festival, and not to mention the largest firework show in North America. It's always been fun to go, but since I haven't lived here in 5 years for it I've missed out. However this year I went with the singles. WE got tickets to the River Bats game that day (the were horrible for once :( sad) and had fun just hanging out there. Here are just a few pictures of the day.

Me, Vanessa, and Amanda

Kev and I

*ME*

Vanessa and Me

Travis, Me, Amanda, Vanessa, and Pablo

Breaking News

Breaking News!

Today started out as a normal work day for my class and myself. WE had breakfast, then had circle time. We practiced writing the letter "Aa" and then played for a little. After awhile we picked up and did bubbles and got out out pet hermit crab "Sally". The kids love to get her out and watch her "run" around the room as they say. Then it was off to lunch. Well everyday after lunch we have nap time... let me back up a little.

There's one kid in my class who has some issues hitting... and the child tends to take it all out on me for the most part. I'd rather this child hit me than any of the other students, but lately the kid has been hitting more and more....

Well at nap time today this child decided to attack me. That's right just full on beat me. I finally got this kid off of me and I lay in the middle of my class room crying because I first off shouldn't have to take this abus and second off I was in pain. I get another teacher to trade rooms and she looked at me amazed as to what this child has done to me. My body is coverd in red marks from the fists and my eye and left side of my face are red too where my face took some hits as well.

I go home and take some medicine and what not to help the pain and what not. Nothing seems to help, so I head back to work to get information to go to the doctors under workmans comp. I go to the doctor and they take xrays and low and behold the child has fractured my jaw. Breaking news aye! A child can break a grown adults face!

I'm just taking it easy and taking the medicine I was given, however I am HUNGRY! I can't hardly open my mouth and it hurts to talk. Overall my day wasn't the best I've had in a long time. The only upside to this mess was when Jay told me he was moving closer officially :) Made me smile (as big as I could without hurting too much lol).

Certain Someone

So there's a certain someone in my life (and from the past) that makes me smile everyday! I feel like a little school girl sometimes and I can't help but giggle... Can't wait to see him.

And Happy Birthday to sweet little Bethany! Today she is 4!

Let Down

My Cats let me down tonight. The first half was rough and I felt like they just had given up. After half they came back alive and almost had it. Really.... 1 point difference! I'll always bleed blue and support my team! Go Cats! I still love ya!